Do I have a choice?
You can say I do…
but do I?
Never once in my life have I ever felt that my moves will make a difference-
Persuade you yes or no, can I?
My heart is in your hands.
Recognize, because it’s true.
I’ll give to you what I get from you,
but atleast make me feel I do,
hold the power,
posses the cards that let your light shine through.
Why must we martyr,
rather than stand up and barter?
Feelings so trapped;
a leg to a garter.
Afraid to let out
from fear of whats to loose.
Blind to the fact,
which feelings to choose?
Listen to your heart,
be strong enough to say.
Don’t let the fear
keep your happiness at bay.
I cant seem to force it.
I find no real pleasure,
in fucking for the sake of pleasure;
for it simply isn’t pleasurable.
The love has to be there,
the love must be somewhere,
Id rather die waiting for it then force what isn’t true.
True love is true,
not just a fairy tale,
I have faith one day fate will bring me the one,
Until that day I suppose I’ll settle for you.
By you, I mean me, as in you, to you.
Because to be happy with another you must first love yourself,
for two halves do make a whole, but better yet, two wholes make two.
When two equals one, true love has been won.
For to use another to make yourself full, this is selfish.
true love is selfless-It knows no other way.
So call me a hopeless romantic,
I say that’s better than being a fool in love that’s not in love, wouldn’t you?
I look for the beauty,
I see it all over,
Why must you judge
When your life is anything but sober?
I might be slow, a little idealistic,
But imagine if we all were a little more altruistic…
For love knows no such act.
We tell ourselves it’s the best for now,
But in the end, it only hurts more.
Keep searching until you find the one,
Until your heart knows it’s true.
Until that moment there’s only one thing to do,
Focus on number one; you.
Live & Learn,
Love & War,
One things for sure,
How to even the score.
Will we ever know,
When we need to know,
What’s actually worth fighting for?
When to put down the armour & call it a draw,
No winner, no looser,
For true love knows no such thing.
Is it okay,
If one must pay,
For the happiness of another?
no rhyme, no reason, to explain why I’m here,
yet I’m laying right next to you, holding you, sincere.
it’s when you start to whisper your sweet nothings to my ear,
it hits me, the reason; you obliverate the fear.
my problems forgotten, no worry is near,
if only I could stay in your arms forever, my dear…
You’re crazy for a me,
I’m crazy for a you,
But that can’t be enough,
We drive each other crazy too.
Lust without love,
Mistaken as true,
But we’re not crazy for each other,
It seems there is nothing we can do.
But what’s gained?
Pride is most important,
Won’t let your heart get in the way.
So I hope you’re happy with your ego,
Since now it’s all you’ve got.
Move on to the next one,
But forget me not…
I believe life all about the choices you make. You make good choices, and you are rewarded. You make negative choices, and karma will be sure to get you back. You may not always see it like this, but when you do , and you begin to see your mistakes and downfalls as lessons not just “bad luck” you can learn to fix your mistakes and grow from them. Life is all about growing. Everyday we grow a little more. It is up to us decide how far, how fast, how long we will last, but you can’t ask for fate to give you a fair hand unless you actually have done something to deserve it. Life can be unfair, but at times, aren’t we all. Everyday little slip-ups like judging another or partaking in some harmful bad habit could be what caused our misfortune. Why does it have to be so much easier to sin? So easily do we get stuck on a pattern that really brings us no good, yet we do nothing to make it better. We blame everyone and everything but ourselves, when ultimately ourselves are the one and only thing we have complete control over. Life is what you make of it, so make your decisions wisely.
For you never can be sure when karma will swing back around, but one things for sure…
IT ALWAYS DOES.
I’m a firm believer in fate, I believe everything happens for a reason, yet I still find myself at times thinking something is just too good to be true. A friend I have known for years and I have recently began taking things to the next level. After years of friendship and already knowing each other so well it seems like the most natural and loving relationship I have ever had. Both our families are in the mindset we will one day be married and even we talk of our futures together like its a sure thing. My problem is, I am a mere twenty years old, am I too young to have found the one? Can it really be the one I will be with to raise a family and live out the rest of life? & if so… How can we make it last? We both are working on our futures, we have so much to do before we could ever actually settle down. We both live fast lives and are in no condition, nor mindset, to be thinking of a home or kids or even where we will live when we do settle down. We agree we need time to explore and grow as individuals yet we both only want to be with each other. So should we go our separate ways, schools in different towns and whatnot, or would that be a recipe for disaster? Should we start right now and go off into the world as one or is it better to take time apart when neither of us has any desire but to spend all of our moments as one? I guess there really can be no right or wrong answer only time will tell, but damn, do I wish I had a crystal ball right now!
Any advise, wisdom, or even encouraging words to set my mind a little more at ease?
how do we know when it’s real?
Am I a bad person?
My heart means well, I wish no harm,
Yet these insecurities make it near impossible to do whats right.
When you have lost the care you simply cannot care.
I don’t care what you say, when nothing matters, your words can’t hurt me.
I don’t want it this way, yet I cant seem to change the one thing I desire to change most.
It torments me.
Leaves me with feelings I cannot control,
Thoughts of the same.
I don’t want your meds.
But I’ll keep my booze and cigs.
They make me happy-for a moment I can breathe;
Even though after the moment it’s worse than before.
But the heart wants, what the heart wants, and for now that’s all I want.
As soon as the care starts to creep back, the pain, numb for so long, is overwhelming.
Smothering my entirety, entirely.
Just one more cigarette, one more shot, yes.
The numbness feels good.
The only thing I love to feel, is nothing.
Otherwise its too much.
Will i ever learn to deal?
Will I ever feel comfortable to feel?
My dog loves me.
She is my best friend.
I dont need to be made up, for her to think I’m a beaut.
I dont need to dress sexy, for her to think I’m cute.
She gives me kisses, when I’m feeling blue,
Always seems to understand what I’m feeling, it’s true.
Dogs live by pure instinct.
Listen to their hearts not their brain.
You might say this is because they have no choice, it’s what they do.
The simplicity of their nature leaves them earnest, nothing but true.
We could learn alot from these loveable creatures,
Wag our tails insanely for anything that makes us happy, despite the features.
The curse of humanity; we think too much for our own good.
We block out our hearts wishes, for fear of being misunderstood.
Love your life, make it true.
Live your life, dont let it live you.
And if you need to lift a lonely fog,
get a dog.
Live to rave.
Move to the bass,
Bang that snare drum,
Bruise your knee with a tambourine,
Rage like you mean it,
Feel the beat.
Love the heat.